Self thought #3

Yes,
though I said but it is wrong..!
Obstinacy lies in my blood.
Anger also but lake of patience..
So anger and patience take the advantage!
I couldn't keep any relationship, friendship for long times..
Still I thought lots of people care about me!
I never dreamt a dream that not mean I am aimless..
Of course I haven't any higher ambition as I am not belong to powerful background.
Want to live a simple and happy life.
Little much conscious about honesty, Respect in every step!
Someone can find out vanity in me but yes I do wherever it necessary !
Laziness is my drawback I admit it.
Oblivion also create problems in many steps of my life...
Still I am trying to clear my deficiencies !!
:) :)

Cannot wind up ......

Happiness

I find you as the setting sun in my anticipated evening.. when I started to thinking about you..!
then my all hopes turn to two drops of warm tears..!
your vanity scattered my heart for a while but my dreams for you remain same and you can't be my past..
I know melancholies don't get any value but I have no regret for it!!

Darkness...

You want to be close to me
But don't ask me about the
Colours of my life.
Melancholies of night are my favourite identity.
Don't show me a dream
Because I got my first lesson of life
Inside the ribs of my mother's chest.
I am not habituated with dreams!
Don't ask me about the
Colours of love,
Neither flamboyance blown up in my heart
Nor I know the colour of Golden Shower!
I don't know how long a root of faith can sprout,
I never stepped on the valley of relationship!
I have an inborn practice of
Having an affair with darkness!

(Published in 'Horizon' of The Assam Tribune of 9th May/2014 edition)