Self thought #4

I am living in a world...
unspeakable, full of emoticons..
I keep hiding my feelings by taking the opportunity of quietness.. :)
A ray of hope and creativity start my day..but I have to lock it up in a dark place..!
Sometime the drops of melancholy creates heavy rain where I have to lost my reality..
A fear of  identity crisis run after me.. I feel worry that am I doing any wrong or going against this beautiful world ??
Because nobody gonna realize me it ..
Sometimes these thoughts puzzled me. I scribbled down to write but the anchor of my soul betrayed me.. I have to resist myself .. Everybody left me.. silence arise for a while and at last these feelings stop working and turn me back to world of reality. :) :)